ALSO...Tim and I just wanted to express our most ecstatic thanks for all the financial gifts, prayers, and well-wishing after the birth of Promise! Despite the many miles between us, we have felt encouraged and supported by our families and friends! So thank you to all those who gave selflessly to let us know how blessed we truly are!
As for me...motherhood has certainly been a journey. Promise doesn't like night time and refuses to sleep. Sometimes she just has bad gas and other times she just wants to talk and stare at us and if we don't stare back, she gets a little peeved....which I like better than her getting fussy. She's growing so fast and seems to change with every diaper change....her thighs are getting fat, her belly more round, her cheeks more squishy...and she even smiles a ton! She's added three inches in her length, too....finally fitting into some 0-3 mos. clothes now! It's amazing how fast they grow and she is getting frustrated with the fact that she can't hold her head up by herself....she tries so hard and is almost there!
However, despite the full heart of love I have for her, I have to say, motherhood is hard (everyone told me it would be.) and I can't imagine doing all this more than once. :) I feel like a leaky faucet and a worn out, saggy lady...which is okay, I guess. This too shall pass, I hear, and I know I'm not alone. :)
I sometimes wonder what God is up to with us having a baby while I am supposed to be working and learning at the birthing center...here to serve Filipina women...but for now, all I can seem to serve is milk every two hours to a hungry, wee gift. We felt called to the Phils to serve the Lord while serving the poor...intent on putting everything we have into it and here we are....parents for the first time...putting everything we have into surviving the first few months of parenthood. Seems lonely, seems off the original plan....and all the while, we know without a doubt that God's timing is perfect and He is not surprised by the miracle He gave us. Makes us wonder what kind of calling SHE has on her life. It's obviously more important than any "work" we do here in the Phils. So much to be processed, so much knowledge and wisdom to gain. Struggling through...guess I don't need to know or see the tapestry the Lord is weaving. I am sure it's beautiful and moreso without me trying to "fix" it to make it look the way I think it should.
For now, we're just trying to figure out the next few weeks. I have class and a few continuities to do prenatals on and two assignments to plough through. I receive daily texts from previous patients wanting to see the baby and still asking lots of parenting, postpartum questions...the same questions I am currently struggling with myself! God is teaching me so much!
The end of this month holds a week long course in Neonatal Resuscitation and then.....OCTOBER 3, my parents come to meet their newest granddaughter!!! As you can imagine, this will be a breath of fresh air in our changing world and I can't wait to visit with a piece of home....my FAVORITE piece. We have a few things planned for them, but ultimately, we are so desiring to enjoy them in our neck of the woods. God has provided for their needs in order to endure the long journey here and we are forever grateful for that. No doubt their presence will provide a very tangible encouragement to us.
Toti is working hard on the water project and it seems to be running great! Tim is currently doing what he can to raise support and awareness for the project while making connections with organizations that could help make the project self-sustaining. Thankfully, he is able to this from home and with short trips here and there around the city.